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(photo of Scott Thomas Outlar)

 

 

 

Burns Hot for Evolution

 

When the walls cave in

the laughter begins

in earnest

(mad, perhaps; but smiling, at least)

 

When the drugs fade out

the blood comes clean

after awhile

(depressed at first, but quickly fading)

 

When the old guard dies

the sex burns hot

for new future

(cuddle up with evolution)

 

When the plague breaks loose

the fever comes

with a black wave

(washing over, lay your head down, God is cancer)

 

When the New Age births

the stars all shift

in the cycle

(rain pours down, tide rise up, flood is coming)

 

"Burns Hot for Evolution" originally appeared in Harbinger Asylum

 

 

 

Weep

 

Sitting outside on the front porch,

watching the rain fall,

watching the squirrels dance,

listening to the birds sing.

 

Bright red, yellow, white, purple, and pink

flowers pop as Spring blooms.

It is all so utterly beautiful.

 

I want to tear my heart out

and weep.

I’m so exhausted from months on end

of writing dark, black poetry.

 

Things are opening up inside of me.

All my faults and inadequacies as a man

are coming up to the surface

where I must face them head on.

 

It isn’t easy

but I’ll survive the storm.

Every season eventually turns;

so, too, will the season in my soul.

 

I hope.

I pray.

I beg.

I weep.

 

 

 

Screaming for Reprieve

 

and if I cross that line…

if I burn it down…

will we still survive?

 

and if I scream to God…

if it is loud enough…

will He even care?

 

and if I break my heart…

if I lay it out…

will She pick it up?

 

and if I bear this cross…

if I take this weight…

will I be strong enough?

 

and if the flood comes fast…

if I’m washed away…

will I get another chance?

 

and if the truth is harsh…

if it leaves black scars…

will I learn to cope?

 

and if I fail again…

like I’ve failed before…

will I stand back up?

 

and if I cry these tears…

if I drain my soul…

will I find reprieve?

 

© Scott Thomas Outlar

 

Bio:  Scott Thomas Outlar hosts the site 17Numa.wordpress.com where links to his published poetry, fiction, essays, rants, ravings, screeds, and other such mumbo jumbo can be found. His words have appeared recently in venues such as Words Surfacing, Yellow Chair Review, Section 8 Magazine, and Midnight Lane Boutique. Scott's chapbook "Songs of A Dissident" is scheduled for a January 2016 release through Transcendent Zero Press.